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Say Tang-Rainwater

I’ve been reflecting on my Bikini Challenge journey for quite a while; struggling on what should I write for my testimonial and what should I keep to myself. Well here we go!
All my life I’ve never learned how to take care of myself. I was raised in the mentality that taking care of others would always come first and I would be last. After struggling mentally with 2 miscarriages, weight gain, and the stress of life in general (personal and professional), I felt lost. I needed to take time to focus on myself, find myself again, to lose weight and to be comfortable in my own skin. After stalking the Bikini page for a while and talking to my husband, I decided to take the plunge.

This journey was very challenging for me because of the strict diet, workouts, work schedule and family demands. I am the type of person who never work out and love to eat all kind of food. For the majority of my life I have been blessed with high metabolism and never really gained weight. I was the kind of person that people hated because I would eat so much and stay the same. But for the last few years and after my second miscarriage, my body was not the same and I gained so much weight that I felt disgusted every time I tried on new clothes and looking in the mirror. To hide my weight gain I will buy dark and baggy clothes. I was very depressed and my self-esteem was at the lowest. At that point I knew that I needed to do something different and get out of my comfort zone and I was hoping that this Bikini challenge will help me with losing weight and building back my self-esteem.

During the process, there were so many times I wanted to give up and was not sure if I wanted to get on that stage and compete. I never like being the center of attention. Just the thoughts of wearing a tiny bikini and getting on that stage showing my body and my butt was scary and I was not mentally prepared for that. I never felt that I was good enough to get on that stage and compete. I was pretty much intimidated by the other bikini girls when I see them at bootcamps, hardcore, HIIT Bitty Bikini and posing classes. I was so mentally and physically drained toward the end, but because of my husband James and my friend Heidi who always encouraged me to keep going and never give up, and reminded me of all of the investments and sacrifices that I’ve put in the last few months, I decided that I will keep going and get on that stage no matter how I feel and I am so glad that I did! I lost 17.4% of my weight, won 3 trophies (2nd and 3rdplaces), found myself, gained back my self-esteem and made new friends.

This challenge has taught me to take time for myself and to make healthier choices when it comes to food! You never know the impact of food on your body and mind until you get out of your comfort zone and try something new! I’ve learned so much from this challenge. It has changed me and I will be forever grateful! Thank you, Bonnie Lefrak, for running this programand the support throughout the whole process! Thank you for the amazing instructors at Fitness Asylum! Thank you for the Bikini Babes that supported and encouraged me along the way! Remember to Take Time for Yourself, Love Yourself, Take Time to Pause, Stop and Reset, Never Give up and Surround Yourself with People that will Support you and Be There for You no matter what happened in life… Eat Healthier whenever you can, Love Life!

Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as typical. This training is not intended to treat, cure or prevent any disease. Seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health care provider before undertaking rigorous physical training.