The best decision I made for myself this year was going back to the Fitness Asylum. The second best decision I made was taking a leap of complete uncertainty and joining the bikini competition team. I entered a world that, since my teenage years, I thought was completely out of the realm of possibility for me. I mean, “those fitness people” are bred somewhere and slowly introduced to our society, right? As someone who grew up in dance competitions, taught fitness classes, and was constantly trying (and loving) something new (i.e. kettlebells, TRX, boxing), even I thought I could never be one of “them”. I didn’t think I’d live to see the day I had a definitive tricep.
Well, albeit subtle, that day came. Three weeks before I got on stage, during one of my many hours of food prep, I saw the magical line of definition. No matter how many pounds I lost, or how many times someone complimented my obliques, this was the moment that I had waited for. Ironically, after I shrieked with excitement and ran to every mirror I could find, it hit me: the transformation happened long before this magical moment.
Somewhere between the posing classes, private meals in the car, break of dawn bootcamps and multiple trips to the fish guy, this lifestyle becomes second nature. The Fitness Asylum program sets you up to successfully embrace the lifestyle you didn’t think was possible. The group of people I have met during this challenge have lifted me up without knowing, and have made me want to get out of bed in the morning and workout. Not even my husband with a fresh pan of cinnamon buns can do that every day.
For me, this wasn’t about losing weight. The “look at your abs! You’re so tiny!” reaction was really just an added bonus. I took this challenge to reclaim the part of my life that was missing. To get back to what made me tick, and rewarded me mentally and emotionally. I wanted a challenge, and I needed to stop saying “I could never!” and finally say ” I’m doing it.”
No single program or adventure has challenged me so much, and in such a rewarding way, nor have I ever learned so much about my body and myself in general. It is an all encompassing challenge, and there is no denying that. The pride and joy you feel during that last week when you stop and say, “holy sh*t, I really just did that” is indescribable. Bonnie, the instructors, your teammates, and your personal support system are wonderful, but at the end of it all, YOU got YOU through it. There are so few things YOU and only YOU can do for yourself that will bring you an incredible feeling that no one else can claim credit for, or devalue. This is one of them. Take the challenge and do something wholly for yourself. You won’t regret it.
I realize this is long – feel free to condense! Hope this helps!