I think it’s safe to say that the Spring Bikini program did not turn out exactly as we planned. I joined this team to compete. A classic middle child, I have built my entire existence on proving myself- pushing harder, giving 110%, never quitting… on and on it goes. There was comment made during one of my check-ins that I should “give myself some grace”. I actually had to Google the meaning of that phrase. In my whole life, it had never even occurred to me that this was an option.
After gaining a quick 10lbs when I turned 40 (it was NOT 10 lbs of muscle) I decided to take the plunge and join the transformation team. I would show middle age and the world that I was strong and confident and I would do it for myself, by myself, with myself.
I joined this team to showcase my strength. A self-proclaimed gym rat for 25 years, I have tried every class, piece of equipment and fitness trend out there. I was going to get on that stage and flex. Instead I learned that true strength is not physical. How crazy that we all did this program during a pandemic. Gyms closed- we outfitted makeshift gyms in our garage. Stores ran out of food, we made multiple trips so we could get what was needed. The show was moved and ultimately cancelled, but we pressed on. Was it hard? Did we slip up? Hell yeah. It wasn’t always pretty, but we got it done…and it felt amazing.
I joined this team to prove what I could do. I didn’t expect to do this with anyone. I’m not a FA member and I live outside the general radius of FA facilities. I know some of you from another gym, but I anticipated taking this journey solo. Instead, I learned that we are all better together. I am so thankful for each person on this team. Your Facebook posts, the coaches’ videos, the honesty and support was truly amazing. I was fortunate enough to connect with a couple other “outsiders” on the team. We walked together and messaged every day. When I struggled, they carried me; when they were having a tough day, I was there. On June 20, we crossed the finish line together and will be bound forever by this experience. I joined this team alone with the intention of going at it alone. I have been gifted with 2 amazing new friends and a tribe of warriors I look forward to seeing in the fall.
I joined this team because I wanted trophy. There I said it. I like to win things and this program ends with competition, therefore anyone on that stage is my opponent, right? As I view the photos of these transformations, I am inspired by your journey and touched at your willingness to share it with me. I cheer for your successes. I am in awe of the hard work you put into this program even under crazy, uncontrollable circumstances. I came into this thinking I was going up on stage against you, I learned that we are all in this together.
I came into this program with a plan. I am a planner. I have To-Do lists of To-Do lists I need to write. Everything in it’s proper space, properly organized. Having trained with another fitness coach previously, I know how this works. Eat well, workout hard, track progress, rinse and repeat. Throw in a pandemic, gyms closing, food shortages- well now things are getting a little shaky. Thank you to Bonnie, Danielle, the other coaches and this team for helping me reign in my freak-outs and learn to just breathe. I still have a little ways to go on this last one, but 1 step at a time, right!?!
The photo that accompanies this testimonial tells a fraction of the story. Don’t get me wrong- I worked that plan and the physical results are there. My photo is frickin A-MA-ZING. That said, my transformation was not something that can be photographed. I am more thankful for the lessons I learned, the friendships I made and the positive impact each of you has had on my outlook to life. This season was so much more than any of us expected and I for one am forever grateful.