I was lost.I needed something that was mine and to show my children that sometimes things are scary and make you uncomfortable but that is life. Take it by the horns and make it your own. It was time to stop talking about it and do it. I missed being in shape, I wasn’t my heaviest but knew I needed more than my sporadic workouts for any more to drop off. A better me, a me that I loved wholeheartedly again was what I needed.
I had been stalking the Fitness Asylum Facebook page before the fall 2017 competition but was not ready, my busy schedule could not possibly fit in that time for me. When I saw it again in December I asked Cindy Valentin if she ever thought about doing it because she was a member of FA. She told me she was doing it and encouraged me to join. I had not taken a single class there but I went home and signed up for the challenge the next day.
I figured a way to squeeze out some times for myself to make it work. At the kick off meeting I left thinking I am not doing this, it is too much, what am I thinking?! I kept going to class and with the encouragement of my husband I stuck with it. One day at a time.
Looking back it was one of the best decisions I have ever made! I found the time I needed and it wasn’t as hard as I had originally thought it would be to get up earlier and get it done!
May 19th I will stand on stage in Worcester with my new family from the Fitness Asylum in a bikini that fits in a zip lock baggie and muscles that have been hiding a long time. I had my doubts, I had my breakdowns but I had this supportive FA family who I didn’t know beforehand! They encouraged, held me accountable, and listened.
Thank you to everyone who has supported my journey, especially my husband Daren. He had faith in me even when I couldn’t find it. Bonnie, Gail, Angelica, MaryBeth, Caitlin, Dion and Jamie your constant encouragement and pushing to the next level was what I needed. I have found myself again and could not be happier. Thank you Cindy Valentin for encouraging me to join and lifting heavy!