Never for once did I think I would enroll in a fitness competition, let alone a bikini fitness competition. I was at the heaviest weight I had ever been, and enough was enough.
I knew nothing would change unless I changed, and that would be a lot more difficult than I thought.
You know, life is a roller coaster, and having bi-polar makes that roller coaster ride all the more difficult. I never know how I am going to wake up each day, and regardless of medication I can’t stop the highs and lows from coming, all I can do is ride them out.
During this fitness challenge I had experiences of really bad lows- couldn’t get out of bed, which prevented me from working out… or the opposite- I was so high that I took on big home projects that exhausted myself or I would binge eat.
COVID-19 brought its own set of challenges: isolation, anxiety, fear, depression, stress (especially in regards to the shift into online learning). I joined Lifetime Fitness, and 2 weeks later the gyms were shut down, I felt defeated and thought to myself “how am I going to do this?”
All I had at home were 8 pound dumbbells.
I made the best of it- I stuck with the light weights, I followed at home exercises The Fitness Asylum provided us, and stuck to the diet. There were a few cheat meals that snuck in there. I’m not perfect, but I decided not to punish myself for it. I rebooted and learned from each of the mishaps I made along this journey.
147 days. A challenge beyond what I thought I could actually complete. The program made me keep myself accountable, make changes to my lifestyle, and reflect along the way.
The Fitness Asylum changed my life.
It provided me a challenge, kicked my ass, but helped me get my mind and body in control. I lost an incredible amount of weight; I feel lighter- physically, mentally, and emotionally. Here’s to a new and improved ME!
I appreciate all the women, and men, that competed this season. We are definitely fearless- surviving a fitness challenge in the midst of a pandemic, and sadly- the cancellation of the show.
However, we are the QUARANTEAM and we finished strong. Thank you to my new FAmily, I’ll see you soon- I’ve got my eyes set on the Fall 2020 season.
ps total weight loss: 39.6 pounds