I joined the Fitness Asylum for the Spring 2013 Challenge, after seeing the amazing transformation that my friend, Linda Dolan, had gone through. Linda encouraged me to join and swore that I would be forever grateful that I did. At the time that I joined, I was at a very low point in life with my weight/appearance. I hated mirrors. I hated getting dressed in the morning. I would have worn sweatpants to work everyday if I could. For me it wasn’t that I was large everywhere, but that I was super large in the bust. Don’t get me wrong, I had junk to lose, but it was my large bust that weighed me down, physically and mentally. I hated them. I hated the way people stared at them. I hated the way they looked in every single shirt I owned. I hated that I could never buy a dress because I would have to buy at least a size 14 for the bust. After each child I had, they only got bigger.
I finally went to my doctor and she referred me to a plastic surgeon, as she said I was a perfect candidate. Let me just tell you how humiliating that appointment was. I stood against a wall as a nurse took pictures, mug shots so to speak, of my breasts. Then the doctor held them in his hands to measure them. I held back the tears until I got in my car. I kept telling myself that in the end I would be happy. Turns out, insurance denied the claim.
Meanwhile, I see pictures of Linda’s body on facebook transforming month to month. Amazing. My chiropractor wrote a letter to appeal the claim. While I was waiting to hear back, my husband and I decided that I should join the challenge and see if I could try to lose the weight myself. So I did.
I am tearing up now as I write this because this journey has been amazing. Life changing. I started at a 40DD, and am so happy to say that after two challenges, I am at a 36DD, but can feel a little room in my bra! I can not even begin to tell you how encouraging this experience has been, and the confidence that has been building back up inside of me. I am not hiding underneath my XL shirts anymore. I wore a bathing suit this summer and actually took my cover-up off, and I bought many sundresses, just because I could! The best thing that I did for myself was signing up for the challenge. I have not felt this good, mentally and physically ever before and am so thankful to have found a place with such wonderful, encouraging, STRONG people.
P.S. In case you’re wondering, insurance did accept the appeal, but I filed that letter away, and just signed up for the fall challenge. I’ve got this!