By guest blogger Paula Hogan
*After Bootcamp today I got lost in my thoughts and had to stop at Dean Park to walk alone. I decided to record my thoughts on a voice recorder (I’ve never done this before). Here’s what came out. I was too chicken to post the 4 minute audio, so I typed it out. It’s a bit long so I apologize in advance. Wanted to share, forgive any typos! :
I have some exciting news to share. I got a new job! Today I became the CEO of my life. It’s quite a magical day. It’s a Monday and that’s perfect, too, because Mondays to me offer such hope and opportunity. Starting fresh on Mondays can give a sense of renewal and rejuvenation. While Fridays can be fun and exciting with the anticipation of the weekend ahead, Fridays can also be days where your thoughts can drag you down. Feelings that you didn’t accomplish enough during the week, didn’t perform at your best, and sometimes you’re already looking to the next week “to make up for” the week past. Then over the weekend, it can be tempting to drone out the week’s perceived failures with distracting busyness, knowing that on Monday you get to start all over again. Alas, today was a new beginning for me.
Being CEO of my life is something I’ve always wanted and I thought it was out of grasp. I might think, I’m a leader, but not *that* much of a leader! I need guidance. Contented to stay back, I allowed things just to unfold around me, keeping me from taking that next step to CEO. Oh don’t get me wrong, I love making plans, being in charge, organizing, reflecting, setting goals, they’re all wonderful things. Now, as CEO, I get to do it all. I get to create the vision and then figure out how to implement everything I want in that vision. It’s kind of scary though, now knowing all of that responsibility lies within me.
So now here I am, sitting at my beautiful desk, my imaginary mahogany desk. It is so clean. It is not cluttered with papers and to-do lists. It is clear and broad, open space where many a project will be drafted. I might have a clock on it, one that doesn’t make any noise. Perhaps a photograph to remind me of where I want to go. Maybe in the room with my desk, I’ll have some green plants to bring in the outdoors, when I’m inside working.
This Monday, this 1st Monday of my new job as CEO, I’m a little bit dreamy. Pinch me. I didn’t know it was possible. So, I’ll have to ground myself in some way, like writing things down in my journal and perhaps sharing that testimony. I know on my first day as CEO, I’m going to make some mistakes. Maybe I won’t make any big ones today, but perhaps I’ll set something into motion and say “this is going to be great” and it turns out to be a flop! But that’s okay. I can re-visit it, I can change it, I am the CEO! Knowing that I can change whatever I like is so empowering. Cutting those ties that were binding me, you know, the ones we call obstacles, struggles, circumstances, and even excuses removes their power to prevent me from achieving everything I hope for. I can do that for me. And it’s such a good feeling, I can’t get the smile off of my face. It even makes me tear up. This CEO business is kinda hot and I like it! And a huge bonus, I’m the only one who is going to give myself a review! There is no board of directors calling the shots. I might have advisors, I might share with people I trust to see if I’m on the right track and being honest with myself. And I think it’s important to do that. But their opinions, suggestions, recommendations will all be something that I’ll need to personally reflect upon, verify, and validate in my own life to see if they resonate as true with where I want to go in my life on this growth journey.
Anyway, I wanted to share with you how excited I am about my new job. I am very proud that I was able to get this promotion. I think it was there all along, just like Dorothy’s Ruby Slippers. I just didn’t see it clearly. It’s absolutely thrilling to be at this new position, especially working on one of the best things I can work on, myself.
Maybe we all can be checking out the job opportunities in our lives. <3